Tuesday, August 30, 2011

Vexed

(painting by Sas Christian)

Retaliation. Decapitation. Justice.

I'm looking at my beautiful vexed face in the rear-view mirror and mull over the irony that has led me to this.

 I, the only human being capable of lifting whole cities with my mind, causing death in every step, manipulating thousands of people with one thought, I, a fuckin' super hero, sitting behind this wheel stuck in a traffic jam, watching the old lady with the pink hair apply nail polish in the car next to me.
Why am I tolerating this?
Why don't I order them to drive their car over the cliff and be done with it? Why am I wrinkling this immaculate forehead thinking of their pitiful lives? All I have to do is close my eyes slowly and connect with their decadent minds, plant the idea that they would get faster wherever they are going by jumping off the cliff on the left and then sit back and watch the street empty right in front of my stormy eyes.

I would and I could...if I wasn't such a Nice. Girl.

Like Spiderman said before me; (and I quote): "With great power comes great responsibility", I am trying to be in control here, to be responsible...it is hard, damn hard it is.

I am rolling down the window, I need some fresh salty air to caress my face, God how beautiful I am, so powerful, and my lips...look at my lips and my make up...flawless. I didn't do it of course. I walked inside a MAC store and ordered the make up artists to do it, nails and all, all with my mind and I didn't pay of course; it was the manager's thank you gift for visiting his shop. He felt so happy to take care of me. Yes, I planted that idea too. I know you can't see my clothes but they were a gift too and the shoes...see the ring? It is platinum, another gift from...what's-his-name? that actor that I spent the night with....he plays in the new X-Men movie...he does Xavier? Oh I don't remember his name..he left the whole family behind and flew all the way from Europe for me...because I sent him brain waves to which he felt compelled to obey...I'm fuckin' Jean (X-Men Jean), I am a GODDESS!

And a Goddess has to be merciful first and foremost.

All this anxiety brings me mental pain, right here behind my right ear...
 I am going to give them a small push, just to get them going...juuuuust a little, when the light turns green....

MOVE NOW GET OUT OF MY WAY
MOVE OR I WILL HAVE YOU JUMP INTO THE OCEAN
MOOOOOOVE! MOOOOOOVE! MOOOOOOOOVE!

- Calm down honey it's going to be alright now, no need to shout, the other girls want to watch too....no don't pull the bandages away....easy girl. You pulled your ear off its socket remember? You almost bled to death... There is nothing left there to pull honey...

- MOOOOOOOOVE! MOOOOOOOVE!

- Security! You need to listen to me now..open your mouth....aaaata girl, now swallow.   Let me see....open your mouth princess..... good. Now if you calm down I'll untie your hands...here you can watch X-Men one more time....